emo

i am feeling at such a loss with myself.
each and everytime i think that i have done a good job, i would go to school and see that someone else has done an even better job. why?
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i'm really sorry if i have insulted any of you(to people reading this who know me) in anyway. Sometimes, i really don't know what i have done wrong.

i would look at you with questioning eyes and then you will always give me a you-know-what-you-did look. sorry, but sometimes, i really dont. if i know that i did something wrong, i would say sorry, or try to make you happy or try to defend myself.


i am extremely stressed right now. yeah so stressed but i still cant do a good enough job.

i feel so tensed. i want some time to rest, to slowly breathe, to rethink about what i have done that led to all of this.

i wish i could go back to the time when the only thing i thought about was lovelovelove.