i feel very isecure about myself and i want to ch...

i feel very isecure about myself and i want to change that.
yesterday when i talked to my sister in bed i could sense her insecurities too.
did our parents bring up us well enough?
if yes, then why is it that all the time, i feel like im not as good as alot of people.
i have insecurities about my fats, my teeth etc.
eww.
if im not friends right from the start with someone whos better than me, i would probably nv be good friends with that person.
why?
because i never think that im good enough.
i dont deserve talking to them.
as dumb as it sounds, thats how i really feel.
i've been called everything from ugly to gorgeous; from skinny to fat; from nerdish to slackish ETCETC,
so ya. im very random..
but am i too random?
right now, the thing i feel most insecure about is my fats.. and teeth
outside appearance.
and i dont feel like im good enough for a certain him.
i've experienced something before and i dont want to announce out who i like because of that experience.
i have to pretend. yes, pretend.