i have to learn how not to hate so much.to forgiv...

i have to learn how not to hate so much.
to forgive, and forget.
even though it might be hard, it can be done.
and i will do it.
i will try forget the incidents of my past.
or at least place them at the back of my mind.
i will get along with people i've never been able to forgive.
people who have lost my trust.

i'm much much more fragile than you think.
but i'm going to do my best.
i have to learn how to love myself again.
forgive me, my friends.
right now, i only have 2 really really good good friends who really really care.
im supposed to have 3 more. 
thats what the quizzes always say.
when they ask for my favourite number, i always put the number 5.
Scrolling down, i was always dissapointed to see that i would only have 5 good friends in my life.
the childish me would always think "i could have written 100."
now i know the meaning of true friends.
people who would stand by you no matter how dumb you look or how stupid you are.
people who wouldnt take advantage of you and use you for their own personal gain.
people who would understand your nonsense and not go HUH especially when theres others around.
people who don't act when they're around you.
people who dont care whether if you have no other friends around you. they are in fact, happier because they can be the only ones beside you.
people you feel comfortable being quiet with.
and so on and so forth.
in total, i will have 5 true friends.
where are the other 3?
i may or may not find my other 3. they might be my guardian angels, silently watching my every move and quietly helping me out.
so friends (if you ever read this one day) , do treasure your loved ones. don't take them for granted because they can leave your lives anytime.


GOOD MORNING I THINK THAT IF I DONT GET CHANGED I WILL BE LATE!!!!!
TATAS!