just felt like writing

Think of it this way.
Maybe, its because i dont really care about how i look like around you (guys) and  hence, i dont give a shit about the way you guys see me. I see you people as just some human being. Nothing special. Nothing worth me giving a second thought about the way i behave.
I only care about how i look around people i like and people who i find special. thats all.
I only take in critisism from these people and when these people critisize me, i get hit badly.
Not you (guys). you are just a bunch of lame assholes trying to get a life, to me at least.
And maybe you might think that im blogging about you, so, that means that i care.

To be honest, those critisisms that i care about, i keep secret.
Not this chicken thing.
the person who started it must be feeling truimphant that he has started SOMETHING to gossip about!
and that biatch is dusgisting. "nooo i dont want karma i dont want karma". yuck.
Do you even know what karma means? or is it just some fancy word that you heard others use then u use it yourself?

I'll just try to find a way to live my life for the next 1 1/2 years. I can deal, because i always tell myself that i've experienced worse before so this is nothing.

Yes, maybe  i should have retorted after all. But i wouldnt, because why should i argue about myself being called chicken, being used as a sex toy?
If i shout, they would think that im taking it seriously and i cant joke around.
If i smile and tell them jokingly, "haha i am not a chicken okay! stop talking about me, go talk about THAT girl there. haha! she is soooo disgusting!!!! HAHAHA!", i would become the kind of girl that i'd hate to become. The kind who thinks that shes oh-so charismatic, who thinks that  everyone would want to tell her their problems just because she thinks so, and worst of all, the kind who avoids critisism by pushing it away to others. And they think that the things that they retort back to the guys make them seem quick-thinking. I find it absolutely stupid especially in the sense that they have a certain i-can-retort-back-yay! air after they say what they said.
Anyways, all i can say is that i may be bothered by the critisism but considering the people, i wont brood so much over it.